This was just an illness he couldn't control.

He said that my problem was that I was perfectly healthy and had the illusion that I would be able bodied forever. I could only begin understanding his problem if I gave up that illusion and that would be very difficult, given how healthy I was. I understand, I mistakenly said, and he said no you don’t.

He's 67 with heart problems, he may not last a year in prison.

It was in his best interest to acknowledge all of it, even though some of it was more than he said he did.

My illness is due to my doctor's insistence that I drink milk, a whitish fluid they force down helpless babies.

No one can control the aging process or the trajectory of illness.