No, I didn’t wait for you
or sleep much at all
or raise one hope like a rag to wipe my lost face.

Accepting the nonexistence of being,
when the absence of existence means the negation of being.

Better to find one thing to live for than a thousand things to be against.

The negation of severe suffering was the nearest approach to happiness I expected to know. Besides, I seemed to hold two lives - the life of thought, and that of reality.

Така вже безвихідність усіх, хто хоче заперечити світ. Давні святі теж проклинали й покидали його, натомість неминуче створюючи свій власний світ, свого бога.

I am the spirit that negates.
And rightly so, for all that comes to be
Deserves to perish wretchedly;
'Twere better nothing would begin.
Thus everything that that your terms, sin,
Destruction, evil represent—
That is my proper element.