If I felt like a fish out of water in my family, I felt like a fish on Mars in Adam’s circle.

I meant it to be jokey, but it came out sounding bitter

he kissed me hard. "Promise me. Promise me you'll spend New Year's with me next year," he whispered into my ear.

I am running the show. Everyone is waiting for me. I decide. I know this now.

Dying is easy. Living is hard

I only need a second. So I can show her that I'm here. That someone's still here.