I was starving, my stomach was touching my back. I'll feel a lot happier when I'll be out of here.

I just feel better when I feel that I am making everybody around me happier. I've basically convinced myself that when other people are happy, I am happy. It works pretty well.

And feel that I am happier than I know.

Starving for a high, a place to hang out inside my own head. Starving for touch. Pain, even. A way to feel. I need to feel.

I feel like I got kicked in the stomach.

When I see someone else on the team get a 3, it makes me feel good. When I get out there I want to back them up and get some.