You weren’t meant for the ice, you weren’t made for the pain. <br />The world that lives inside of me was not the world you were meant to contain. <br />You were meant for castles and living in the sun. Thecold running through me should have made you run. <br />Yet you stay. Holding onto me, yet you stay, reachingout a hand that I push away. The cold is not meant for you yet you stay, you stay, you stay. When I know it’s not right for you. <br />The ice fills my veins and I can’t feel the pain, yet you’re there like the heat that sends me screaming in fear. <br />I can’t feel the warmth I need to feel the ice. I want to hold it all in and numb it till I can’t feel the knife. <br />Your heat threatens to melt it all and I know I can’t bear the pain if the ice melts away. <br />So I push you away and I scream out your name and I know I can’t need you yet you give anyway and I run wishing you would run too. <br />Yet you stay. Holding onto me yet you stay reaching out a hand that I push away. The cold is not meant for you yet you stay, you stay, you stay. When I know it’s not right for you. <br />The blackness is my shield. I pull it closer still. <br />You’re the light that I hide from, the light that I hate. <br />You’re the light to this darkness and I can’t let you stay. <br />I need the dark around me like I need the ice in my veins. <br />The cold is my healer. The cold is my safe place. Youaren’t welcome with your heat you don’t belong beside me. <br />I hate you yet I love, I don’t want you yet I need you. <br />The dark will always be my cloak and you are the threat to unveil my pain, so leave. Leave and erase the memories. <br />I need to face the life that’s meant for me. Don’t stay and ruin all my plans. <br />You can’t have my soul I’m not a man. <br />The empty vessel I dwell in is not meant to feel the heat you bring. I push you away and I push you away. <br />Yet you stay.

Abbi Glines