You need to grow up, and realize what it is you need right now, and what you can live without.

I was such a messed up person and he was still holding on.

If we became a pal to what scared us the most, we could find a simple way to ease all that bothered us, we would find peace, peace that we could live with.

You have really great hands,” she said as he began to massage her butt. “If you ever need extra money, I think I’d be willing to pay for this.”
He chuckled. “Why would you pay me when I’m more than happy to do it for free?”
“Okay,” she agreed. “Anytime you want to rub my ass, feel free. I certainly won’t complain.”
“I’m going to hold you to that,” he whispered in her ear…

Had I just made a date with a tatted up bat wielding miscreant?

When your demon was yourself, there really was no way to fight or get rid of it.