You know why beads were started, don't you? ... They were used to count your prayers.

The moment I started treating my social anxiety disorder, I started feeling better.

I started practicing yoga. I started learning some hands-on healing stuff. And I found really good chiropractors, really good massage therapists, and what I found is I've been able to actually peel off layers of trauma on my body and actually move better now than I did.

Then all of a sudden things started going wrong, ... It was a bit strange.

They were pushing me for my own good and for their medal count. I didn't appreciate it and I started to tailspin, changing steps and spins and everything. It just didn't feel comfortable. Having people tell you it is not good enough before you start training, it doesn't help.

I don't think people change. I think they definitely mature. But I think the essence of what I am today is the same as when I was five years old. It's just maturity. I've become a healthier, fuller expression of that essence.