you clench your teeth,you look up, you tell yourself that if they see you cry, it will hurt them,and you will be nothing but a Sadness in their lives, and you must not become a mere sadness , so you will not cry and you say all of this to yourself while you are looking up at the ceiling , and then you swallow even though your throat does not want to close and you look at the person who loves you and smile<br />" i lit up like a Christmas tree, Hazel Grace. the lining of my chest,my left hip, my liver ,everywhere.