When you've got nowhere to turn, turn on the gas. , "Answered Prayers" (Unspoiled Monsters).

Oh, I adore to cook. It makes me feel so mindless in a worthwhile way.

When Sherri asks questions about who would find me if I killed myself and what their reaction would be, I think that whoever knew me would be sad. But then everybody would get over it. I would fade away. I don't think I'm that important to anyone. Nobody's opinion about me killing myself would stop me from doing it.

What do you want to do with your life, then?” is often the question I'm asked.

To be honest, I don't know. I really don't.

Mainly because I don't see myself living long enough for that to make much of a difference.

They say suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, but sometimes that problem isn't so temporary.

I am committing suicide by cigarette,” I replied. She thought that was reasonably funny. I didn’t. I thought it was hideous that I should scorn life that much, sucking away on cancer sticks.