This is a constructive thing to do with anger and grief. Planting a tree or a garden is a way to acknowledge the frustration in a positive way.

If only we could do like the old video tapes; able to rewind and fast forward life. I wish we could rewind March 31, 2005 and there would be no need for us to be here. The trial is like rewinding and we are stuck not moving forward. If there is a resolution maybe it will help all who loved these three, and little Alex, who survived, move forward again.

It survived. That is a good sign.

If grief or anger arises,Let there be grief or anger.This is the Buddha in all forms,Sun Buddha, Moon Buddha, Happy Buddha, Sad Buddha.It is the universe offering all thingsto awaken and open our heart.

If grief or anger arises,
Let there be grief or anger.
This is the Buddha in all forms,
Sun Buddha, Moon Buddha, Happy Buddha, Sad Buddha.
It is the universe offering all things
to awaken and open our heart.

In days that follow, I discover that anger is easier to handle than grief.