This feeling of being in proximity to something that’s lost to you, it seems like my whole life right now.

...but somehow when it's real, when it's your life... that person can feel even farther off and more unobtainable than an actual celebrity. Proximity doesn't breed familiarity

(The proximity) is as much of it as anything else,

I have to get off this elevator.
I can't ride with him,
Can't look at him,
Can't be this close to him.
Can't,
Can't,
can't.

Proximity and closeness are not the same.

There are a lot of things that were lost that were irreplaceable.