The ways I could hurt her and hurt myself. Those two things were intertwined somehow. It's hard to explain, but when you were as closed off as I was the past few months, opening felt as wrong as stripping naked in church.

Dig deep. Find your way to your soul.

Seventeen moons, seventeen years,
Eyes where Dark or Light appears,
Gold for yes and green for no,
Seventeen the last to know.

I saw his face change.
His eyes widen.
He lunged at me.
I wouldn't let go.
We stared into eachother's eyes and clawed at eachother's throats.
As we rolled over the edge of the water tower and fell
the
whole
way
down,
I
was
only
thinking
one
thing ...Lena

But you still fight. You still hope. Because there's a chance you might win. And even if you don't - you fight for the people you love, especially when they can't fight for themselves - Kennedy

I was lost before I found her in my dreams, and she found me that day in the rain. I knew it seemed like I was always the one trying to save Lena, but the truth was she had saved me, and I wasn't ready for her to stop now.