The only fear I have is coming back and falling back into the same rut I'm already in.

I'm willing to go today. I have more to gain than to lose.

I barely passed the physical. But I passed. Then they said ?you're good to the oath, man.? So I took the oath and I was blown away by it that I could get back in because I tried so hard for so long.

My intentions were that I was going to get back in after I grew up a bit or straighten up. Nobody would let me in.

We had some fear that this might happen.

Fear is the mind killer