The number is the curse. It's a heavy burden.

One of the biggest sicknesses this world has is expectation. We all expect other people to be a certain way or to do a certain thing. Most people, they spend their whole lives under the wants of other people.

Everyone thinks his own burden heavy

A light purse is a heavy Curse.

This was a very heavy burden to carry around for all these years. She's unloading it, getting rid of it. She's saying, 'This is who I am, this is how it affected me.' She's trying to move beyond it.

When you're truly awesome, you know that it's actually a burden and wish day after day to be relieved of such a curse. Think of about 95% of the superheroes.