The fairytale has turned into a nightmare.

I'm more comfortable knowing that, chances are, I'm going to fail at this. I've become comfortable with that.

I think now I'll probably take a few days off and enjoy the competition and then sit down with a few people and work out what is next, work out what the next preparation will be and what competition will be next.

Compared to how I have raced before and how I have competed, the success that I have had, this does look like doom compared to it.

I'm disappointed that I really haven't been able to race in a way that is reflective of the amount of work that I have done and how I have trained. But I don't regret giving this a go.

I'll go for broke. Swim faster. It's not going to be easy - this whole thing was never going to be easy.