Some people are just not meant to be in this world. It's just too much for them.

Not belonging is a terrible feeling. It feels awkward and it hurts, as if you were wearing someone else's shoes.

(...) Since I was a kid."
"Which you refer to as 'back when you were happy.'"
"Right.

I waste at least an hour every day lying in bed. Then I waste time pacing. I waste time thinking. I waste time being quiet and not saying anything because I'm afraid I'll stutter.

I can't eat and I can't sleep. I'm not doing well in terms of being a functional human, you know?

I didn't want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that's really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you're so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.