Once it was all a joke but now it turned into smoke, it's burning and i'm just more and more concerning...

if there was a way to end up today and not suffer afterwards that would be ok.

i'm burning, i have expired, i don't feel anymore to this life wired!

i'm so close of doing it, only last couple of things saying NO, but God oh God why am i so sure!!

it must be really bad to be so sad... i think i have stopped trying to be happy ? Why would you even try when all you want is to die...!

Existence is like drifting in the water full of slaughter!