Nothing like that is on the horizon. There's no basis for denial.

I didn't want to think about it. I didn't want to choke or anything.

And that is how we are. By strength of will we cut off our inner intuitive knowledge from admitted consciousness. This causes a state of dread, or apprehension, which makes the blow ten times worse when it does fall.

You can almost create a formula for it. The greater the denial at the front end, the longer the term of penance to get free on the back side.

The great law of denial belongs to the powerful forces of life, whether the case be one of coolish baked beans, or an unrequited affection.

Deny yourself! You must deny yourself! That is the song that never ends.