Never be decieved by exterior decorations, some monsters go about on suit and tie and of course a Bible.

Not everyone who comes to your doorstep with a bowl is a beggar. Some of them are actually winged creatures in disguise.

No amount of listening to messages can or should take the place of personal Bible study, meditation and praying.
Train yourself to search the Scriptures for God's will for your life.
By the way, that's how real relationship with the Holy Spirit is forged.

If I had been a man in a suit and tie, he would have never given me that clipboard and told me to write that order, ... I threw the clipboard back at him and I said, 'No, you can write the order for me.'

Deal with all this, live with myself, you mean? I honestly don't know. I stand often enough at the abyss of my soul, asking that same question, looking down into the dark crevices where the black monsters dwell on the bottom. They gaze up at me, and I look them in the eyes. “This also you are,” they say, and I almost fall into the void.”
“And then?”
Anaxantis shrugged.
“And then? I turn around and go do what needs to be done. What else is there?

I had to, ... Tie my suit up, tie my tie and just get downstairs to my car as fast as I could, so nobody could see me.