It's been a misery for me, living with Christine Keeler.

I have always been free with my love - it is my nature. I am easily captivated by men and they have always been attracted to me.

I'm terrified of men these days. If someone asked me out now, I don't know what I'd say, how I'd react. But I couldn't go through with it, not at all. I suppose I've been terrified of them all along.

I won't say I didn't like it at the time, the sex, that is, because I wouldn't have let him do it at all if that had been the case.

One way of reading my life is that I have been in constant search for a father.

The fathers, if they got me alone, would try to kiss and fondle me. I hated it.