It has been an enormous struggle over the last six months,

The death of a child is the single most traumatic event in medicine. To lose a child is to lose a piece of yourself.

You do not die all at once. Some tissues live on for minutes, even hours, giving still their little cellular shrieks, molecular echoes of the agony of the whole corpus.

You die as you've lived. If you were paranoid in life, you'll probably be paranoid when you're dying.

Done to death by slanderous tongues

Death without dread of death is welcome death