I miss walking out of the tunnel, the 90 minutes and the adrenalin rush that I'll never, ever replace.

I want the ball for 90 minutes. When I don't have the ball, I go high pressing because I want the ball.

Stephen would have been the last bloke we would have wanted to replace after just 20 minutes.

These days, I'm always trying to have lots of touches, to be involved, and to play my football for 90 minutes.

I've got a great life that I really enjoy. But there is something chewing at me inside: that adrenaline rush from football, I miss that.

'Blind Date' was my lifeline. It was 90 minutes when I could forget about everything, forget about the world.