I love those moments in which you are barely awake, you are falling alseep or just waking up. In those moments I feel the closest to happy that I might ever get, I can't remember anything, just the sleepiness. Its like for a second, my brain is restarting, and for a second, its giving me the proper dose of chemicals. But then in the next moment it remembers who Iam, and it goes back to it's original state. If only a pill could make me feel that way forever.