I felt fine but I want to know how I feel in the next couple days,

[LOS ANGELES: LHP Wilson Alvarez, who hasn't pitched for the Dodgers since Aug. 6, is close to being activated after another throwing session. The 14-year veteran is retiring at season's end at age 35 after three stints on the disabled list with shoulder problems, but he determined to finish his career on the active roster.] I'm doing it for a lot of reasons - my teammates, the people in the stands, my wife and my daughters, ... I want to show that I don't give up no matter what gets in my way. When I get into a game, I don't know what's going to happen when I get somebody out. I might cry, I don't know. I don't know how I'm going to react. It's going to very emotional, I can tell you that. But as far as next year, I've made my decision. I don't want to go through surgery again. I know I won't last another season if I did. It's time to give somebody else a chance, instead of going back on the DL.

When I get in a game, I don't know what I'm going to do, ... I may cry. I may not cry. I don't know. ... I just want to get somebody out before I leave the game.

I'm here trying to do it one more time. I'm doing it for my kids. I'm doing it for my wife. I'm doing it for my teammates. So they can all say you've still got it.

letting it go a little bit.

It's time to push it again.