I am going insane. Yes. That is what´s happening. Good. Insane.

My mind floats like ash. I blame myself most cruelly.

Bushwhacked, I examine my hands. Same hands. Rings still there but no longer valid.

I have a new mantra, which I chant softly to myself: "Oh My God Oh My God.

Already things are changing; it´s starting with small shit but oh it´s starting, the change, the irrevocable, impossible change.

A heart can stop beating for a while, one can still live.