I am destroying myself so other people can’t," she said, "and it’s the worst kind of control but it’s the only form I know.

The urge to destroy is also a creative urge.

Sin Fever," Wraith chimed in with a little too much enjoyment.
Sin Fever? They'd named the fucking disease after her? Bastards.

It is also the first National Games after the two important regulations on doping control were issued, and it's an important opportunity to check our work.

It's kind of nice to control our own destiny, and then did.

The mind-is not the heart.
I may yet live, as I know others live,
To wish in vain to let go with the mind-
Of cares, at night, to sleep; but nothing tells me
That I need learn to let go with the heart.