How I wish I could undo it all … take it all back…
All those years I spent unhappy with him …. when I should have been looking for you.

When I was with him suddenly I wasn’t this broken person anymore.
I was just me.
I was whole again.
I was just a person – like everyone else.

It’s the intricate details you miss the most.
For me, it’s the soft lines around the eyes when he smiles… Or that look he gave me sometimes that I cannot begin to describe - but I would know it if I saw it again.
It was the look that gave him away.
I’d know that look anywhere…
It used to be my everything.

Every quote, every book, every film seemed to suggest that ‘one day’ someone would come into my life and love me with an intensity and a passion I had never experienced before. And to their credit they were right; It all came and went so fast it really did feel as if it were just ‘one day’....

He looked at me like I was the stars when all I’d ever felt like was the dark nothingness between them.

How many times did we pass each other before we met? If only I’d known…. I would have searched for you endlessly.
If only I’d found you before it was already too late.