Growing up, I wanted desperately to please, to be a good girl.

I was a total bad girl growing up.

Growing up, I never felt like the pretty girl.

I didn't have a good childhood growing up.

Growing up, I was obsessed with Leonardo DiCaprio.

Growing up she had become used to allowing men the ability to curve themselves into question marks around her and hold her desperately as if she were the answer. She had become afraid to admit that she is not.