Feeling harder to be oneself might be a curse of popularity.

No one can curse and bless anybody at the same time.

The curse of men can't make me defiled. I defile myself if I curse men by intention.

A ruling government can't afford to publish history in a version which lessens its' chance for reelection.

You can do ice-breaking by being cool.

you must find yourself before you can know where you belong, yet to find yourself first you must know who you are. However, you will never really know who you are if you are always allowing other people to define who you should be, so be yourself and if you are still unsure of who you are then reinvent yourself.