Experiencing those moments of being alone... is a very, very weird flooring and exposing position to be in when you're just not used to it... But I've never been lonely. And with my kids Mia and Joe that remains the case.

Being alone is very difficult.

I'm so accustomed to being alone.

I like working alone. I feel freer, less constrained. I know what I have to do and I try to do it. There are no superficial hangups.

I remember seeing this video for the first time in college - miserable, half-drunk on Keystone Light, a Camel Light smoldering in my mouth, about to desperately tap-dance my way through another social interaction - and saying out loud: "I fucking *get* you, Bee Girl.

Freedom of being alone is intoxicating.