Behind the camera, I was invisible. When I lifted it up to my eye it was like I crawled into the lens, losing myself there. and everything else fell away.
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Related When I started I felt that I probably was losing my mind. But I fell in love with it right away. LINDA METZGER I felt real good when that ball was in the air. It lifted our players up and everything. KENNY CHAPMAN I look very different on camera compared with how I do in real life. On camera, I look my best when ... MARTINE MCCUTCHEON Aye, well, I've got my garden. LIKE I I told my Nike representative, 'Why didn't you guys use me for this?''' Williams said, laughing. LIKE I On the interception, I was out of bounds, LIKE I casually made his 'abort black fetuses' argument. LIKE I I can field my position. If I start worrying about being ready for a line drive too soon that means ... LIKE I I told him that he played a great game,'' said Falcons quarterback Michael Vick , who like Manning w... LIKE I I was so concerned with getting the ball out of my hands and not taking the sack, that sometimes I t... LIKE I I knew I had to throw the ball better,'' Manning said of his poor start. 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JEANETTE WINTERSON I loved reading when I grew up but did feel totally invisible because I couldn't see myself and ... MALORIE BLACKMAN I was confident going into the axel, even though it didn't work so well in practice. When I fell, I ... STEPHANE LAMBIEL It was different for me because I was there by myself. I did feel that it was just me, not my team. ... BARBIE VINEY I was never interested in becoming an actor. I was directing videos. I was never into acting. I was ... BARKHAD ABDI Everything that I hate about myself goes away when I was onstage. HALSEY I never fell behind in my school work even though it was stressful. EMILY PFERDEHIRT I was facing sideways and I saw the defender out of the side of my eye and just lifted it over, ... ... FREDDY ADU When I landed off that jump, I hooked an edge. It was pretty abrupt. I lifted my ski up and when I d... BODE MILLER The smell of apple pies didn't quite fill the house, but it was there, a thread under everything els... LILITH SAINTCROW When I was a child I devoured every book I could get my hands on. I loved losing myself in colourful... DAVID WALLIAMS I was stressed and scared and I had to hurry to be someone, become something, do something. I was ru... CHARLOTTE ERIKSSON You know, I think I knew you for about three weeks before I ever really saw you smile. And then one ... SARAH DESSEN It's true. It's like the hidden secret that no one tells you. we can all be beautiful girls, Colie. ... SARAH DESSEN Wasn’t allowed to have pets. I killed my pet cockroach when it crawled into my ear. KATHERINE MCINTYRE My left eye went when I was young. I was working the speed bag, and some steel went in the eye and s... JOE FRAZIER I actually hated hunting the first time I went when I was a kid. My dad took us deer hunting. We sat... CARSON WENTZ I've had broken bones and cuts and dashes and tears from movies, but when I was five, my mom put... GERARD BUTLER It lifted the vehicle 2 feet in the air. I was on fire, but I was able to climb out and roll away. WILLIAM WATSON I was just running my route and doing my job, and the ball just fell right into my hands. Right when... BRAD WOOD Warhol was the ultimate voyeur, constantly observing people through the lens. He watched and listene... ALISON JACKSON There is at least one way to be invisible: Stay behind the camera. OCTAV DRUTA I'll get there, if I leave everything but my bones behind," said Sam. "And I'll carry Mr. Frodo up m... J.R.R. TOLKIEN It was right below us, ... It lifted everything up. HAROLD JOHNSON I told all the camera crews out there it was time to pack up and go home. DENNIS FRAZIER When I was growing up, all the art that touched me was lens-generated, like Gerhard Richter, or Polk... WOLFGANG TILLMANS One I built when I was a kid, and it was a real miniature of Disneyland. I fell in love with the par... BOBBY SHERMAN When I crawled in she started screaming. She was saying things like 'Oh my god, oh my god. MARIELLA RUOCCO It was a terrible call. At that point of the game, I just lifted the guy's stick (Patrick Eaves) and... DAN BOYLE After I defended my title the first time when I beat Sarah Kaufman, I went back to my room, and my f... RONDA ROUSEY When I was learning to creep, my mother set me down on the beach to see what I thought of it. I craw... SYLVIA PLATH When I was little, I had this old video camera, and I set it up, and I would pretend that I was on c... CHRISTINA GRIMMIE I feel the atmosphere inside the ice rink was going up, so it was like a stone fell off my shoulders... MAXIM MARININ I once fell 20 feet from a tree, was knocked unconscious, and when I picked myself up and straggled ... SHARON CREECH I was hoping it would stay in the ballpark. I kept my eye on it. I was hoping I wouldn't smash into ... DAMON HOLLINS When I was a teenager, my dad used to put a lot of pressure on me to be successful, and I'd real... DOLPH LUNDGREN The stand up, everything was accidental. I never grew up and was the class clown and had to get the ... ELLEN DEGENERES After my grandmother passed away, I felt the urge to take my camera to her flat. I knew this flat fr... ARNON GOLDFINGER It fell into my lap. I grew up doing dance classes. And one day, a film production company contacted... MAIKA MONROE Just the other day I pulled out this old cassette of Ragged Glory and I popped it into my cassette p... KRIST NOVOSELIC When I had my first camera - I was a child of the '80s. I remember what it was like reusing the ... HARMONY KORINE When I was a child I thought I saw an angel. It had wings and kinda looked like my sister. I opened ... DENZEL WASHINGTON After the restart it seemed like chip was holding up everyone behind him for a few laps which allowe... PETER CUNNINGHAM It all came down to the day when I was lifted up. I'll never forget those three days. ALEX PRADO The second I walk onto the set and I know that there's a camera and I know that there's a Da... VIN DIESEL I always value my large kitchen because it was better to do everything there, you wash up, you do ev... BUCHI EMECHETA Everything of value was up on things, but this water was just so high that it lifted everything up a... JENNY AUGLIERA I fell behind 2-0 and had to get a strike there. The ball was not where I wanted it, no doubt. I jus... EDDIE GUARDADO My hair was so much a part of my personality and all my photo shoots. I hid behind my hair. And then... PAMELA ANDERSON That was my pride and joy - that I made it through all those years of minor hockey without losing an... TOM GLAVINE Art was always my main focus; I fell into writing by accident in the 1980s, writing magazine article... DOUGLAS COUPLAND It's all to do with the training: you can do a lot if you're properly trained. QUEEN ELIZABETH II Like all best families, we have our share of eccentricities, of impetuous and wayward youngsters and... QUEEN ELIZABETH II My husband has quite simply been my strength and stay all these years, and I owe him a debt greater ... QUEEN ELIZABETH II It is easy enough to define what the Commonwealth is not. Indeed this is quite a popular pastime. QUEEN ELIZABETH II I have to be seen to be believed. QUEEN ELIZABETH II I have in sincerity pledged myself to your service, as so many of you are pledged to mine. Throughou... QUEEN ELIZABETH II I hope that tomorrow we can all, wherever we are, join in expressing our grief at Diana's loss, ... QUEEN ELIZABETH II I myself prefer my New Zealand eggs for breakfast. QUEEN ELIZABETH II The British constitution has always been puzzling and always will be. QUEEN ELIZABETH II I have behind me not only the splendid traditions and the annals of more than a thousand years but t... QUEEN ELIZABETH II To what greater inspiration and counsel can we turn than to the imperishable truth to be found in th... QUEEN ELIZABETH II What were once only hopes for the future have now come to pass; it is almost exactly 13 years since ... QUEEN ELIZABETH II First, I want to pay tribute to Diana myself. She was an exceptional and gifted human being. In good... QUEEN ELIZABETH II I cannot lead you into battle. I do not give you laws or administer justice but I can do something e... QUEEN ELIZABETH II To all those who have suffered as a consequence of our troubled past I extend my sincere thoughts an... QUEEN ELIZABETH II Grief is the price we pay for love. QUEEN ELIZABETH II The upward course of a nation's history is due in the long run to the soundness of heart of its ... QUEEN ELIZABETH II At its heart, engineering is about using science to find creative, practical solutions. It is a nobl... QUEEN ELIZABETH II At Christmas, I am always struck by how the spirit of togetherness lies also at the heart of the Chr... QUEEN ELIZABETH II For many, Christmas is also a time for coming together. But for others, service will come first. QUEEN ELIZABETH II
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SARAH DESSEN It [I'm leaving] wasn't really necessary to say, especially if you were already walking away. Almost... SARAH DESSEN It was so risky and so scary, and yet at the same time, so beautiful. Maybe the truth was, it should... SARAH DESSEN When you don't know where you're going, maybe it wasn't such a bad thing to have more than you need. SARAH DESSEN That's not a real answer.' Says who?' Says me. I mean real fear, like of failure, of death... SARAH DESSEN It's hard to be nice when the rest of the world is so mean. SARAH DESSEN I want the white one SARAH DESSEN As Isabel acted out her date, both of them laughing, I stayed in the kitchen, out of sight, and pret... SARAH DESSEN Isn't it weird," I said, "the way you remember things, when someone's gone?" What do you mean?"... SARAH DESSEN I can still see Boo sitting there on the floor, cross-legged, holding my Ken and watching my face as... SARAH DESSEN So what's your doll's name?" Boo asked me. "Barbie," I said. "All their names are Barbie." SARAH DESSEN Why should I even bother? What's the point, really?" He thought for a moment. "Who says there h... SARAH DESSEN I couldn't imagine what it would be like to be one of so many, to have not just parents and siblings... SARAH DESSEN If someone is really close with you, your getting upset or them getting upset is okay, and they don�... SARAH DESSEN Restoring order of my personal universe suddenly seemed imperative, as I refolded my T-shirts, stuff... SARAH DESSEN There were so many places in my time with Rogerson that I wished I could go back to, hitting the sto... SARAH DESSEN That's what this has been all about for you, correct? Make it clear. That you and me--it was nothing... SARAH DESSEN And for one second, it was like I could feel the timing clicking together, finally pieces falling in... SARAH DESSEN Sometimes, you have to manufacture your own history. Give fate a push, so to speak. SARAH DESSEN It was amazing how you could get so far from where you'd planned, and yet find it was exactly were y... SARAH DESSEN These were always the weirdest trips for me, when it was midnight or even later, and we pulled up to... SARAH DESSEN You couldn't just pick and choose at will when someone depended on you, or loved you. It wasn't like... SARAH DESSEN Story of my life. SARAH DESSEN instead, we just sat there, together but really apart, watching a show about a stranger and all her ... SARAH DESSEN I understood now. This voice, the one that had been trying to get my attention all this time, callin... SARAH DESSEN I am the middle sister. The one in between. Not oldest, not youngest, not boldest, not nicest. I am ... SARAH DESSEN I'd been convinced I was on the outside, but really, I'd always been within arm's reach. All I had t... SARAH DESSEN Because this is what happens when you try to run from the past. it doesn't just catch up: it overtak... SARAH DESSEN Because the truth sometimes hurts," I said. Yeah," he said. "So do lies, though. SARAH DESSEN