and sadness clung to me
because she did not know
how to be alone.

oh, the heartbreakingly beautiful
tender weight of being human.

i can't hold onto love.
i'm not gentle enough.

i always end up
crushing the thing
in between my fingertips.

hold company with yourself so sacred
that even when you are alone,
you are whole.

there's always been a little sadness inside my happiness.

i've never been able to separate the two.

do not let anyone in
until they love you so fiercely,
you have no defense against their love.