A true serenity and pureness of yourself is hard to save... a peace inside is so hard to find and keep but all is worthy enough to work on it and achieve!

I've learnt that one must constantly work on its own self-growth. Without a nonstop self-motivation one can easily become obsessed, dependent, depressed etc. When your conciousness is weaken you're an easy booty for all kinds of weaknesses, diseases & bastards. Better you work on what you let into your mind and heart than they'd do it for you.

Yesterday I knew how to make a new brush in photoshop totally myself, though I had never worked with brushes before (didn't even use, not create),hmm, interesting experience. Even if to think abstractly -TODAY- you don't know what something means & how it can be used!TOMORROW- you not only use but create a new one of the same kind! Isn't it paradox of life?! Isn't it a prove that there're so much new to learn & so many possibilities and opportunities which're just one step from you & me.

I wonder - is this just too much of lust and desire, or just too little of self-control and respect in male's nature?!

No matter how many times you forgive- there comes a time when you gather the smithers of your violated self-esteem and with the leavings of your strength you decide to move on.. This is the time when the one whom you constantly forgive - HAD LOST YOU FOREVER!

On rare occasion we are granted the gift of seeing how far we have come; just how much we have healed and how really free we are. This changes us. Never again will we underestimate our ability to rise.